It's been awhile... maybe too long and too late

[Yuriismsr]

I don't know if anyone remembers me, i used to play renegade here alot back in the mid 2000's, even became a mod until i became inactive and then i came back for a bit later on... i also played minecraft for a bit.   I been away for quite some time and possibly too long.   I hate to come back with bad news but i feel that i should at least give whoever does know me the news.  I been diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer on march 17th and i have masses in my intestines and tumors all around in my stomach.   In undergoing chemo treatment for the next 6 months which hopefully will eliminate or shrink them then if enough of the tumors is gone or small enough, then they can do some major surgery to get MOST of it cuz it is unlikely to get all of it.   They say i have a 30-50% of this happening.  Even so, if successful they say i have a estimate 5 years to live in best case scenario but i question this cuz im gonna ask my doctor when i see him next on if i am able to get the surgery then after i recover from it, why can't i go back on chemo/or get another surgery to get the rest.  Anyhow if i cant get the surgery then my guess is i have 1-2 years to live and im only 35 years old :(     I hate to leave a bomb shell/negativity on you guys like this but i guess i felt like the people who knew me should be updated, dunno why.   I did miss you guys, i been really busy for the past years and i regret not playing here even more then i did but you know how it goes... life gets in the way of things i guess.  

[Itai795]

I'm so sorry to hear it, these are terrible news. I hope and wish you would beat that horrific disease and fully recover, despite the odds you mentioned. I heard about people who survived against worse odds, try to stay strong and positive. Easier said than done I guess...

[Joetorp]

God be with you, Yuri, I wondered where you went.

 

[WNxH3adSh00t]

I hope you'll beat it, that sounds really awful.

[Yuriismsr]

Here is a update to my situation.   I had the surgery but the cancer already too much in the small intestine which they cant remove cuz you kinda need the small intestine to live.   They give me 12-18 months now to live so i guess i lost the cancer fight.   It was fun playing with you guys back in the day.  The only thing i can do now is try to have as much fun and enjoy whatever time i have left however long that will be.   I still can't believe this is happening and i wish i went to the doctor early last year when my back pain happened, they might of found the cancer early enough for me to survive but as the doctors and everyone else say, you cant go on what ifs cuz you cant do anything about it.   So im trying to stay positive and do a few bucket list stuff like going to vegas which i will be going in march.   Selling my pokemon collection on ebay has kept me busy the last few days and probably will keep me busy for a bit as selling stuff has always excited me plus i need the money to do stuff to enjoy the short time that i have left.   If i keep busy and dont let my mind wander then i should be fine cuz keeping positive is really hard to do when facing your mortality.   I just hope their is reincarnation so i might have another chance of life even if i dont remember this life.     I wish you guys the best of luck and let me lay some advice on you so you dont repeat my mistake, if you are in pain or have something odd that you are experiencing out of the ordinary with your body... GO TO THE HOSPITAL... it might just save your life.   Anyways for only being 35, i did have a happy and enjoyable life and thats more then i see with some people who live to 70+ so i guess thats something.   

[Joetorp]

I am so sorry that your prognosis is not good, keep fighting to the end, my friend, I lost a friend in August to lung and brain cancer.  Stay in touch with the community.  God bless you!!

 

[Itai795]

That's horrible, I'm sorry to hear that.

I'd be happy to see you in game if you want to play and have time for that.

I hope you would be able to enjoy and live the rest of your life to their fullest. Thanks for letting us know.

[XtremePro]

Thinking of you, Yuri.

[shaitan]

I didn't even see this topic back in April, fuck. I am so sorry for you Yuri.

Start up one of those GoFundMe's, spread that around your circles. I'm sure people will chip in and help you out.

[Yuriismsr]

I been selling my pokemon collection of cards on ebay since last week tuesday and already earned 14k dollars and still have tons of more cards to sell. :)   At least i got some money for my vegas trip.  I just have to heal up so i can actually sleep properly and do stuff.  Im gonna see what my options are tomorrow with chemo to try to extend my life but if the types of chemo available will effect my quality of life stuff then i wont take it cuz what is the point of living if you cant enjoy stuff that you eat, drink, etc.   Life is cruel sometimes,  if i didn't have this cancer, i would of probably never dug the pokemon collection out thus wouldn't of gotten this money and stayed struggling with money but now that i have limited time, i have tons of money in a short time.....